Ten days of autumn #Day 10+3

Wow. Ten days... time flies!
I don't know, I have that weird feeling: ten days looks like ten years or something. I'm still worried about my project because I have done nothing right now. I'm scared... I don't want to fail, but who wants that? I should start, no more excuses!

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I didn't start that day and I didn't finish these post. That's quite hilarious, ah!
I was (and I am) a little bit sad because my BFF (both of them) are living a special moment and I won't be there. The first one is already graduated and everytime someone posted a pic I was really really sad... I don't know, I'm a little bit nostalgic and our life are changing so much... But we can still have some moments to share. I don't want to lose them.
And I'm a little bit sad because another friend of mine, a special one. He's special but I won't be able to be with him anymore in the next future... I miss his voice and his cuddle.
Yesterday, by the way, I've talked with the girl about the videos and she explained me a lot. We watched some videos together and I'm not that bad, probably I will lose my eyesight but that's ok. The work is worth it!
She told me to watch ten videos in the next week and then I could tell her if I've got the feeling. That what she said. The feeling. WTF? Sounds really hippy for me but I want that, I want to be able to recognize the individual and then their behavior... Doing this, here, I realized what I want to do in my life (at least in this moment). I like this place so much!
As I said already I'm just a little bit overwhelmed by the language barrier... But I'm trying to speak with the others everyday more and more and I'm reading "Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone" because I need to improve my vocabulary.
I hate that my voice sounds so different in english... my accent is so freacking strong and I'm not able to use my "charming" voice with them. Fuck!
I will learn, that's a promise.